IMG_4029When I step on the plane this Tuesday life as I know it will forever change.

I know .. I know.  It sounds very dramatic.  And it is.  I’m heading to Seattle to say goodbye to my father.

I knew this day would come.  When I first heard the diagnosis of Stage 4 Lung Cancer a few years ago, I knew.  But as a family we remained hopefully optimistic and put our full faith in my fathers doctors and in the treatment process.  And it worked for several years.  But this past year has been a hard one for my father.   And the time has come where the chemo is no longer working.  The Cancer is spreading.  And it’s time for us to come together as a family to honor and love my father.  To fill these next few weeks with laughter and memories.  And to stay strong for the most important man in our lives.

He’s going to be very mad at me for writing this blog, because he’s a very private person.  But I can’t pretend and hope it goes away.  This is happening to the family, and I need just one moment to share the emotions so I can be strong for the family when I get to Seattle.

My daddy-o (as I like to call him) has been my hero for pretty much my whole life.  He can do anything.  He’s the guy to go to when you need help fixing something around the house.   He helped to raise my son when I was a single mom for the first time, and was probably the best male role model in my sons life.  He worked in the Space Program and helped to write the manuals instructing others to repair the Space Shuttle.  Oh sure .. it takes a genius to build a space ship … but it takes an even greater genius to know how to take it apart and put it back together again even strong!  My dad is my sounding board when I’m mulling over really tough decisions.   He’s my dad!

Watching my mom go through the same ordeal I went through when my husband passed from cancer has been tough.  The fact that I live so far away and have not been able to help has been difficult.  But then, what can you do or say to make any of this easier for anyone?  Thank goodness for my older sister and her kids.  They’ve been so good at taking care of both my parents, and I am so grateful for that.   I can only hope in the coming weeks I can be as helpful.

So … life as I know it know will change once again.  The moment I step on that plane.


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