I’m feeling very mellow today. I’ve come to peace with some things that were causing major stress this past week . … and realized it’s just not worth trying to please all of the people all of the time. Some relationships just aren’t meant to be fostered .. and that’s OK. People whose main focus is to bully and intimidate have bigger issues to deal with – and I wish them the best of luck in overcoming their demons.
There have been resolutions to some issues here at the office as well .. and while it means another increase in workload .. the changes will make us a better team in the long run. I’ve had to put on my “what’s best for the business” hat for awhile … and it will be good to take it off and see if these implemented changes work out. We’ll reevaluate come January .. so that’s three months to get new systems in place and learn how to function as a cohesive team once again.
It’s funny how peaceful things become when you find resolution to problems that plague you. I posted a quote on my FB page the other day that read “Don’t push a loyal person to the point where they don’t give a damn anymore.” I think I reached that point … where I don’t give a damn. And my loyalties have shifted towards those who want to foster lasting relationships – and I’m all the better for it. I think what bothered me the most was that ONE person …. who I wanted to get to know the most … just doesn’t have room in their life right now to get to know me. It makes me sad for them .. because I’m discovering that I am a pretty amazing person. I’m just so tired of trying to reach them .. it’s their move now.